The Greatest Man......

to ever walk the earth, was my dad!!

He taught me to strive for something better....

Whether that was by going to school

Or just acting like a princess with guys so they would treat me right!

He was always there for me.

And I thought he always would be there.....

Today marks the 13th year since he passed away.

Since the loss of such a great man!! 

And the best father a girl could dream of......

For me......

There are two days a year that are really hard....

Today, which was the day he died.....

And October 24th which was his birthday!

And there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him.

Sometimes to remember the good times....

But also to remember that my dad won't be there to walk me down the aisle....

That he didn't see me graduate high school

And that he won't see me graduate from college.

That my children will never know him except through the stories I tell.

And he won't hold his grandchildren in his arms.

Today is hard for me because my dad was my world. 

All my hopes and dreams included him.

Because I loved him......

And no one could explain why he was gone.

So if you still have your father...........

Then do me a favor today

Hug him an extra time for me

And maybe my dad will feel it too!

A View of the Greats!!

So last month there was an ISO Meet Up in Portland at a very cute little wine bar!!

And I'm so sorry its taken me this long to get around to putting up a blog about it.....

But now the time is upon us!!

Check out the images taken of me!

And check out the links bellow of the wonderful photographers who took them!

This image was taken by J. Robert Williams

And I was trying to channel Coco Rocha, one of my model idols!!

J. Robert Williams is one of my favorite local photographers!! 

But recently he has been having some health issues and unable to shoot.....

We're hoping he gets back on his feet soon!!

And to help we have an event in town as well as a donation page!!

This next image is by a lovely girl who rode up with me and Kassie to the event!!

She goes by Polly Irungu Photography!

I love this picture even if it makes me look a little like a hipster <3!!

Check out and like her page though!!

I'm sure it would make her day!!

I have to say I love how this particular image made the tank mostly opaque!!

As it was very very see through!!

This is the first time I've worked with John Hayes Photography!!

And not only do I like the product but him and his wife are rather nice in person!!

Something I find to be essential!!

Check out their website.....

Last.....but not least!

(Is that statement overused yet?)

Is an image by Tinker's Realm!

She's the only one so far that has caught me in my secondary outfit!

Check her out!! She's wonderful!!

And as an after thought......

I kind of tend to hang back when I go to the Meet Ups to shoot..........

Because I'm shy or not super outgoing.....

I don't really know why

But I do know that from now on I'm going to try a little harder to shoot with more people!!

And to be a little more outgoing!!

Also if you were more interested in the fashion from the shoots check out my style blog:

Hellish Styles!!

Where I cover the looks and where I got everything in em!!

Much <3 Belle

BTS: ISO PDX meet up!!

So I just wanted to put up some behind the scenes images I took of the ISO meet up this last weekend!! There are only a few of them but I was pretty stoked with how they turned out!!

Kassandra being shot by John Hayes!!

John Hayes shooting Kassandra.....opposite view!

Kassandra always gives me the best faces!!

See another wonderful face from Kassandra!!

Polly shooting Alexis out front the Corkscrew!

J. Robert Williams shooting out front the Corkscrew!!

So those are the behind the scenes shots I captured.....that I liked anyway!! Gives you a small peak into what the whole group shoot kinda looks like. I do have a few behind the scenes shots of me shooting too but I'll put those up another time once I get em!!!

Thanks for reading!! <3 Belle

Beauty without her Beast

I have decided that I'm gonna start using code names for things! I hope that it makes things a little more interesting!! And it makes me feel better <3

I've always loved Belle! She's my favorite princess and always has been. And I thought that maybe there would be a rough and tumble Beast out there for me, who will just turn into my Prince Charming. But last month me and my Beast (the boyfriend of about ten months) broke up.

I'm not all too happy with this. I had gotten really attached to him and I feel like I really loved him. I was happy just existing with him and I thought that was the best thing in the world. We weren't perfect because there is no way that you can really be perfect but I thought we were happy.

But I guess he wasn't or something. I don't know really. All I know is that I got told that he wasn't adjusting to that this is what life is gonna be like for the rest of his life. A month or so passed and I just got tired of being the reason he was so unhappy. I didn't want us to break up but I hated even more just knowing that I was making him so unhappy. So we ended it on mutual terms.......

I wish that it hadn't happen. And now over a month later it still hurts and I still cry every now and then. Sometimes because I'm angry and sometimes because I'm sad. All I know is that I wish it hadn't happened and I wish he would come home but I can't just put my life on hold hoping that he will come back. Hoping that I meant as much to him as he did to me.

I hope this gave you a little insight into my life and all. And that it helps you understand why I've been a little absent for the last couple months. Sorry also for the lack of pictures but I guess I'm just not in a picture mood with this post!

Much love and I hope to put up another post real soon! XOXO Belle

Introducing Grr!!

So come meet the newest member of my family!!

Here is a video of me taking her in the field!! 

Her name is Grr and we adopted her from a family that found her wandering around in the streets one day. She is about seven plus years old and since taking her to the vet a couple weeks back she is pretty healthy puppy......though the antibiotics have her feeling a little under the weather.

She loves going out in the field to go potty and frolic a little. As well as eat grass? She's always eating grass. And one time she drug me a little further into the grass then normal and a snake got all startled and it almost gave me a heart attack.......

Inside she sleeps in our bed with us till it gets too warm......and while we're out of it she lays on all our pillows and blankets lol. She loves to cuddle with us on the couch while we play video games or watch shows. But she has a mean streak too!! She stole a whole boneless chicken breast off a plate on the table and half a huge burrito outta one of my containers........

But I love her and she's my puppy!!

Thanks for reading lovlies!! <3

Shooting: Digital Latte!!

So about a month ago I shot with a wonderful husband/wife photographer team by the name of Digital Latte!! We just wanted to aim for a lazy Sunday morning type of shoot. And here are a few of those shots.......the first one is my favorite!! 

The first two we covered the couch in some pretty fabrics and just kinda lazed around in a tank top and sweatpants like I would at home. On a Sunday morning lol ^.^

 This one is much the same when it comes to wardrobe but we were sitting in front of a blank wall with a fan to add the wind to my hair. I think it turned out quite nice!!

These last two were in a couple of different outfits. The maroon one I brought with me and the other is black and pink that was lent to me by the photographers.

I hope that you enjoyed these!! I know I had a ton of fun working with them and I rather love these pictures!!

Just Tripping: Family Vacation Day 2 and 3

Here are a few pictures of me on the second and third days.......well I think most of these are from the second day!! I got to play with my phones settings a little bit which is why they all look different!

And this is what happens after a long day of just running around non-stop. My sister-in-law, Bethany, fell asleep on my shoulder while visiting my cousin Kyra at her house!!

And this is what I ate most of the day on our third day......so healthy right? The best way to my heart of course is always food......tuna melts being my favorite for sure!!

 And last we went to visit my father! We brought the new roses with us. He's been gone 12 years now as of last month RIP!! He was my world before he passed and everything I do in the future is for him.