Beauty without her Beast

I have decided that I'm gonna start using code names for things! I hope that it makes things a little more interesting!! And it makes me feel better <3

I've always loved Belle! She's my favorite princess and always has been. And I thought that maybe there would be a rough and tumble Beast out there for me, who will just turn into my Prince Charming. But last month me and my Beast (the boyfriend of about ten months) broke up.

I'm not all too happy with this. I had gotten really attached to him and I feel like I really loved him. I was happy just existing with him and I thought that was the best thing in the world. We weren't perfect because there is no way that you can really be perfect but I thought we were happy.

But I guess he wasn't or something. I don't know really. All I know is that I got told that he wasn't adjusting to that this is what life is gonna be like for the rest of his life. A month or so passed and I just got tired of being the reason he was so unhappy. I didn't want us to break up but I hated even more just knowing that I was making him so unhappy. So we ended it on mutual terms.......

I wish that it hadn't happen. And now over a month later it still hurts and I still cry every now and then. Sometimes because I'm angry and sometimes because I'm sad. All I know is that I wish it hadn't happened and I wish he would come home but I can't just put my life on hold hoping that he will come back. Hoping that I meant as much to him as he did to me.

I hope this gave you a little insight into my life and all. And that it helps you understand why I've been a little absent for the last couple months. Sorry also for the lack of pictures but I guess I'm just not in a picture mood with this post!

Much love and I hope to put up another post real soon! XOXO Belle

Day to Day: update and rant about friendship

Heya all you lovely people......I know I've been rather absent from here and I do mean to get back into this starting with this post ^.^ But still feel the need to update everyone......

So I've managed to make my rent for the last two months on some much appreciated help from friends and all my savings. And I've managed to get caught up in my bills. My next step is to collect all needed information and proof and take my ex roommate and ex best friend to court for all the money she owes me. It pains me to do this but she left me no choice.....she wouldn't talk to me about it like an adult and ran with her stuff while I was at work......

Other then that I have new roommates and they are pretty cool. They like to chill and such and I enjoy their company......And I might be moving when they move out too with another new friend that I think is much too trusting much like myself......that being said here is the promised rant:

What kind of 'friend' leaves a friend that has lent them money to move outta their mothers house because they were going crazy and doesn't make them pay anything but rent when they're living with them without a notice? A bad friend and a user.....I hate when people think that they are entitled to everything that you have because your friends and you were nice enough to lend them things every now and then. And its a good sign that someone isn't grown up enough to deal with normal day to day life situations let alone adult situations.....someone that shouldn't be living outside their mothers house because they don't have the maturity to do so. And someone that shouldn't be trusted when they say they're your best friend because they're a user. Thats the only thing that could explain it......

I feel like if you have friends that are willing to be there and help you out. Ones that lend you money no questions asked. Or that are there when you need a shoulder to cry on then you should feel lucky. Because a lot of kids out there now like to say they're your friend and then when push comes to shove they flake because things are too intense. Friends are there through the thick and the thin and can't be replaced.....all the others are just acquaintances.....people that its fun to chill with but not to count on. So cherish those real friends that you have because there aren't too many out there.