Reflections On School and a Sneak Peak (caution porn wallpaper in picture)

Friday I go get my books for classes that start on Monday. I changed my schedule at work today for when classes start and I can't help but feel a little......nervous!!

I feel old. I just turned 24 and I don't have too much accomplished with my life. I have some pretty cool things I can say I've done......but nothing thats too worth while in the long run. I just checked out and lived a normal life. But now I'm going back to school and I just feel.....too old!! 

Like maybe I should of done this sooner. Like I should of taken care of my suspension earlier. Its the first time I've ever really felt a sense of regret about something I've done rather then about how someone turned out. And its really not a good feeling.......at all!!

So.......I'm making some promises to myself about school!! I promise:

*to get nothing lower then a 'B' in all my classes 

*to do all homework on time, even if its only half done at least turn something in

*talk to my counselor about my field of study

*try to get a couple scholarships

:those are my goals for this term. I want to head back to school with a bang and I want to just do what I need to do. Because its taking me much too long to get this done and to get on to having a career. And thats all I have to say about that for now. So onto.........

SNEAK PEAK!!!!

Earlier this week (and by that I mean yesterday) I showed you a little of what I'm gonna look like in my Activism! set......well I have a picture today from the actual set to share with you!! Hope you love it as much as I do!!

And if your on Zivtiy..........I have a new set going up tonight at midnight!! I can't share an image from that one as the one that I have is what she's using for her project. But its an awesome set and its being FEATURED!!!!

Activism! Prize Shoot Today

So this morning I shot for the Activism! Prize on Zivity. I woke up at like 8:30 am (half an hour late) to jump in the shower and get ready for my shoot!! Well Kassi showed up as I'm wallpapering my kitchen in 80's porn half ready for the shoot......so I'm gonna back up real quick here because I'm sure none of this makes any sense.

So first off Zivity has prizes where you can win money by putting up a set into the prize and being picked or having the most votes/comments. And the Activism! Prize is just like it sounds. You do a set about something your super passionate about. Now for me that would be gay/lesbian/bisexual rights but I could not for the life of me figure out a way to portray this without a sign and I did not want a sign in my set.....at all!!

Then it came to me.....I have a stack of porn that I found while digging through newspaper drop boxes for coupons!! I shall wallpaper the walls in my kitchen (nice small space by the door) and use it as a background. Just a girl and her porn......80's porn I might add. Check out the transformation:

Here is what it looks like before!!!

And this is after the 80's porn exploded!!

Now after wallpapering this small area with lots and lots of porn the next thought was what can I wear for this. And as I just couldn't come up with anything that screams I'm for LGBT rights I went with a classic......cute little school girl!!

Here is the whole outfit......don't mind the mess lol

And just an up close picture of the hair and make-up....not to mention cute bow I made!!

So there is the stage and the look for my activism shoot.....me and Kassi had a blast. You can find her on Zivity as well as a photographer and a model. And can't wait to get some of the images back to show you what we accomplished today!!

And as for other goals - I wore this outfit out of the house today minus the heels.....I hate walking in heels!!

Thanx for reading and much love <3 <3

PS if anyone would like a free month pass to Zivity please comment with your e-mail so I can contact you!!

Blogging In The New Year

So tonight's blog is gonna be a lot like last nights blog and not all spiffy because work ran late and I'm super tired......so here we go! In the new year I really want to write at least one blog entry a day and its gonna be something thats hard for me to do. Because I lose motivation half way through doing something and next thing you know I'm not doing any entries.......so my roommate is gonna help keep me on track. Here are some of the things I'm hoping to post this year:

Modeling - I'll be posting pictures and information on all the different kinds of things I'm trying for. Like just today I saw that Razor Barbie is looking for a new spokes picture for their Facebook page and I want to try for that!!

Photography - I'll post pictures of all the different things I take pictures of and of all the things that I'm trying with photoshop. Hoping to go far in this area......maybe!!

Travel - I plan on traveling a lot. Hoping for a trip to Portland this month. Going to Emerald City Comicon in the end of March and beginning of April. Then England in June or July. And Las Vegas in August. So lots of plans to travel and to go along with those......pictures of my travels and such!!

Crafty Things - I'm hoping to put up something new I crafted for myself or to sell. Or I'm hoping to do some actual decorating of my house. I have quite a few ideas for this that I want to put into place and would love to share.

30 Day Challenges - I'm gonna make up a bunch of different 30 day challenges......like photography of nature or people and other such things. I'll figure out a new one for each month. This months is gonna be the challenge of actually getting a post up every day!!

Day to Day Life - things like the outfits I'm wearing and updates on my health and coupon adventures. Just day to day kinds of things......

New Years Resolutions

Professional

This year I'm hoping to further myself in many ways and the biggest one being professionally. I want to take my many 'careers' to a higher level this year and hope to meet many different goals!!

Modeling:

This last year I've gotten the chance to work with a lot of great photographers on quite a few projects. I worked with many talented models, make-up artists and hair stylists. And managed to get published in Giuseppina Magazine! I joined a sight called Zivity posting art nude sets, where I've been creating a fan base and actually getting paid to do something I love to do.......

Models: Me (Left) and Renee Kryl (Right)

Accessories Designer: Me

Photographer: Nick Johnson

This year I wanna try to take my modeling further and this is what I'm hoping to do:

1. Shoot once a week. Now this could be shooting with my roommate or a photographer everyone knows. This could be for fun or to publish in a magazine or for a set on Zivity. But its gonna happen once a week!!

2. Get published. Now this is a interesting one....because I'm gonna try to be published six times this year. And if what I put in isn't accepted I'm just gonna try again. Because persitence is whats gonna pay out here!

3. Model some designs. I want to try to either e a spokesperson for or just be in photos on sights for designers. I don't care if its their etsy shop or their facebook page or their actual webpage. I just want to have some sort of 'tearsheets' to show off by the end of the year!!


Photography:


For the last five years I've been the one in front of the camera. I've been learning what I can about making clothing, doing my make up and how to do my hair. I know how to be in front of the camera but this year I want to learn how to be behind that camera too!!

1. Pick up a camera. This year I'm gonna buy a good camera and I'm gonna take classes and I'm gonna learn how to take pictures as beautiful as the ones I'm in.

2. Start pages. I'm gonna start photography pages on everything that I have modeling pages on and try to do this as well.

3. Learn photoshop. I want to be able to do everything and this looks to be my biggest challenge. But with all the tutorials we'll see what I come out with.


Clothing Line:


This last year I got myself published for the first time as an accessory designer and I was so proud of that. It just projected me into wanting to actually trying to make my own clothing line. So I drew up a ton of ideas this year. I started an etsy account and got one thing up. But didn't quite meet the goals I set for myself last year.

This year I'm hoping to make it much farther in this:

1. Get more done. I want to have more up on etsy. I want to have more up on my like page. I just want to get more of my work out there for people to look at and maybe buy.

2. Make it look great. I want so bad to get published again and to just have some great images come from the things I make.

Personal

These are just a few of the goals that I have set for myself personally. I'm hoping to just have a better year all together and here are some of the ways that I'm hoping to achieve that!!

Health:


Now I'm not much of a health nut but I am getting older and just want to get around to being healthier while it'll help me out. Sot this year I'm pledging to eat better. Less sweets, no caffeine (other then special times), and no fast food. As well as exercise more!!

In the process I'll be joining Bat Fit 2012 to help keep myself motivated!!



Educational:


This year I'm going back to school and hope to pass all my classes with a 'B' or higher. And on the side I'm hoping to learn a new language - Russian or German!!


Blog:


Now for my blog.....I'm challenging myself to post once a day. Thats 365 posts this year. It'll be everything from photoshoot images to images of travel to book reviews and so on. Tons of new things coming your way!! And I hope that you'll all find something you love here.


Travel:


This year I plan on traveling much much more. So I might make my way to somewhere near you. I'll be starting this with a trip to Emerald City Comicon and an early summer trip to England. So look for all sorts of cool things from when I do travel.


Book Club:


Me and my roommate are starting a book club. I'll announce what book we're reading so everyone can read along if they want to. And then making a post about it for everyone to see. We're also looking into starting a facebook group so we can have a chat going about it. More on that soon!!


Last Little Bit Here........

I wanted to join into the Filthy Victorians challenge for the year (these are the rules). But I know that dressing Victorian all year round isn't going to happen. I know my limits. So I'm going to show my support by dressing up Victorian in my own way and as often as I can......

But to challenge myself with it I've decided that I'm gonna try to get dressed up everyday. Anyone that knows me knows that I like to be comfortable and this year I'm going to challenge that to at least be nice looking daily.

Much love and thanx as always for reading!!

Secondary Quest Haul

So I know its been awhile since the last time that I posted about such things ut I though I'd add a new post about my questing ^.^ I'm sure you all remember my quest for Sugarpill Cosmetics and some of their beautiful eyeshadows.....well they came in awhile back and I would like to show you some pictures I took of them as I got them.....and soon I'll share with you some pictures of me wearing it ^.^

So lets get onto some nice pictures......this here is the packaging that it came into......

And this is what it looked like when I opened the package ^.^

Now the big box is my pallet, the small box is my pressed powders and the three boxes are the loose powders......

This here is the burning heart palet with buttercup, flamepoint, love+ and poison plum......

Here is the bulletproof eyeshadow (which I broke today sadly enough.....)

Here are the three loose shadows I got.....Goldilux, Lumi and Absinthe.......

And I got a little sample of Birthday Girl......

And I got a sticker and some cards and such......with the package and I super love them ^.^

Day to Day: update and rant about friendship

Heya all you lovely people......I know I've been rather absent from here and I do mean to get back into this starting with this post ^.^ But still feel the need to update everyone......

So I've managed to make my rent for the last two months on some much appreciated help from friends and all my savings. And I've managed to get caught up in my bills. My next step is to collect all needed information and proof and take my ex roommate and ex best friend to court for all the money she owes me. It pains me to do this but she left me no choice.....she wouldn't talk to me about it like an adult and ran with her stuff while I was at work......

Other then that I have new roommates and they are pretty cool. They like to chill and such and I enjoy their company......And I might be moving when they move out too with another new friend that I think is much too trusting much like myself......that being said here is the promised rant:

What kind of 'friend' leaves a friend that has lent them money to move outta their mothers house because they were going crazy and doesn't make them pay anything but rent when they're living with them without a notice? A bad friend and a user.....I hate when people think that they are entitled to everything that you have because your friends and you were nice enough to lend them things every now and then. And its a good sign that someone isn't grown up enough to deal with normal day to day life situations let alone adult situations.....someone that shouldn't be living outside their mothers house because they don't have the maturity to do so. And someone that shouldn't be trusted when they say they're your best friend because they're a user. Thats the only thing that could explain it......

I feel like if you have friends that are willing to be there and help you out. Ones that lend you money no questions asked. Or that are there when you need a shoulder to cry on then you should feel lucky. Because a lot of kids out there now like to say they're your friend and then when push comes to shove they flake because things are too intense. Friends are there through the thick and the thin and can't be replaced.....all the others are just acquaintances.....people that its fun to chill with but not to count on. So cherish those real friends that you have because there aren't too many out there.

Day to Day BullS***

So I was wanting to write up a post basically just to explain why I haven't been posting too much......

As of about two weeks ago my ex roommate (and ex best friend) came home while I was at work and took all her stuff with her. Coming home to that wasn't fun but neither was having to ask her when she was gonna pay rent this month. Because what I got back was basically that she wasn't and it wasn't her problem anymore.......

So now I'm taking her to court for all the money she owes me. And have been spending the last week trying to get some assistance from churches for my rent. Which is now late. Anyway.....thats kinda what I've been doing and why there are no posts........

And its just getting worse. I got sent home yesterday and can't go back to work till Monday when boss man comes back.......So I'll be spending this week trying to make some sort of money. Just to make next months rent. And I'll try to catch up on my blog when I'm not doing other things.....

Thanx as always for reading.......